As this month comes to an end, I find it difficult to take down my Turner Syndrome Awareness ribbon. It is all so bittersweet.
Just this past week, two people have had this strong impression that Cade is a very special spirit. I told both of them that I know it is because of his sister.
I also had an experience, without giving away too much detail, that someone was touched by Elle's very short, but special life. I was in awe, as I don't know the person very well, but it made me feel closer to her. It was probably one of the greatest blessings that I will receive.
This year, I got a precious, little, gold flower charm to always remind me of her, pink flowers from my loving husband, and many words of love and comfort from friends.
I appreciated those who remembered her, and thought about and prayed for me. I really didn't expect the day to be so hard, (last year I was pregnant with Cade, so that made all the difference) but I seriously felt like I couldn't stop crying. But what I found amazing, was the feeling I had when I woke up...I felt your prayers. I truly did.
It was like a new found peace was awakened with the sunrise of the new day. How grateful I was to find peace.
This morning, as I scroll through my news feed, I see many beautiful pictures of rainbows. How fitting was it that my feelings of the day were very much reflected by the rain and rainbows.
Cade is my rainbow baby. And although Elle was my rain storm, she was very much needed, and was followed by wonders, and little miracles.
Thank you, again, for your love and prayers.
Goodbye February. Until we meet again...